born to work out?

today was a cool day. everything was very relaxing. had lunch with Rice in one of my all time favs, Bar.B.Q Plaza. yummy! love the bacon *drools*, udon, pork, garlic rice etc. everything tastes yummy with the sauce. but not too much unlike Rice that can eat practically anything with the sauce. including the lard that was all roasted! eww. imagine how many pounds he's gonna put on. but he works out a lot. so in the end, he'll just burn all the fats he gained within the same day. bitch. that doesn't happen to me. 

so when i was at home, i was feeling all guilty. maybe it wasn't about the guilt lar.. was more about the fact that i've put on so much of weight since i graduated. the pants that used to  be loose.. its now.. sigh.. lets not mention it. then the  thigh that part, feels tighter than ever. sigh. it kills all my mood and desire to try clothes especially bottoms, shorts or jeans or skirt , they make me sadder than ever each time i pick them  up. the size gets bigger each time  i visit stores to add on to my wardrobe. how sad.  i WAS size 6. now? can barely fit in. sigh sigh. yeah. i'm in the transition from  size M to  S L. i'm not exaggerating. serious issue here.

 what else can depress a girl more than this. so realizing that, well, maybe it's time to work out. sigh. its never my nature to work out. i'm not born a sportswoman. i'm not born to run/jog. i'm not born to sweat. yeah, after whining so much about it, in the end, i went for a jog this evening. it's a good start! my whole leg was so jelly-fied when i reached home. so tiring and i don't think i sweated enough.  think must prolong my track.  hope that my determination continues for at least a month? haha. yeah, aku ni hangat-hangat tahi ayam. please expect that. 

besides the sadness about my growing size, *damn it*, well, there's something that at least made my day.  since i can't be trying on clothes cause i'll undergo some sorta depression if i do try and see that i had to take size L, but trying on heels is never an issue! my feet doesn't put on weight. so i love my feet. and i bought a new pair of heels to add on to my collection. it's been so long since i last got a new one. 

it's been so long.. sooooo looonnnngggg

first gold.

my leg is thin right? lol

that's about it. afterall, it's a good day. good night.

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