interview

after so long not blogging, it's time to update my dear readers.

just wanna share with you last two weeks where i went for my interview for one of the banks. there were two parts of the interview because of the jobscope/position that i chose.

first part was the normal interview. introduce yourself blablabla. normal lar. nothing interesting.

the second part was the more interesting. put you to thinking mode. haha. so i was given a case study to do after my first interview due to the nature of jobscope selection. bloodyhell. i was half cursing cause it felt like assignment/exam. ish. and was given 20 minutes for 3 pages text. ish ish. 

so during the interview, which i doubt he, the interviewer read, started asking about my opinion. and as i try to justify my answer, here comes the atomic bomb! he started bombing me, question me this that. and i was speechless.

he bombed me with this when he gave me alternative solutions which i assume he deemed better lar.

"i bet you didn't even think about it"

damn bodoh! haha. and i said yes, i didn't think about it. being honest wert. i don't want to act smart in front of experts. you will tend to look EVEN DUMBER. i ain't taking the risk, yo! and i remained silent listening to his alternatives and bombs without being defensive. and he attacked me again.

"you're suppose to defend your answers, you know?"

me: "yeah i know, but i got nothing to say."

eh, i was just being honest! i seriously have got nothing to say cause in the initial stage when i tried to defend, he continuously attacked me until i SIEN. so, i gave up.

following that, he asked me a trick question! 

to me, integrity or money first?

for those that are close to me, you know how much i love money. haha. and in the same time, being a banker or anything else in fact, integrity is the utmost important value. 

and how do first class honours student nail the question? i'm sure you would answer integrity straight within split second. being honest again, haha. i used my big brain to think for a few seconds in my mind which i think was pretty obvious on my face. and then i answered integrity lar! of course i won't answer money wert. you really think i would jeopardize my interview and future meh?

he was like. (OMG expression and a lil of laugh), you need to think to that question arR? haha. i smiled/laughed and said something which i forgot. haha. damn bodoh yet funny thinking about it!

so overall, it was a good experience. and do  u think i failed the interview a not? it was a management trainee intake so there was like 100 over people on that day that try to fight for the same rice bowl as me.

that's about it. anywhow, i didn't regret being honest because what for you wanna lie and if you lie wrongly, you gonna look stupid, i rather look honest then being labelled as 'trying to act smart' or 'empty can'.

p/s: the second interviewer was quite HOT. good looking and tall. haha. cannot help it but to check him out during the interview and i admit losing focus because of that. hahaha. aku tergoda! yes yes, i'm a slut. go on with it.  i don't care.

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virgin heart.

i have this old old friend that i knew long time back. well, he has been decent and a very nice, sweet person. so he finally confessed who he likes after bugging him for quite some time. it's not possible to NOT like anyone right? i am sure you have someone that you like/prefer even if you're single. so i finally managed to dig out his deep dark secret and found out who he likes.

after several times of asking him to ask her out for a drink or something, he finally did it. and the girl agreed also for the date, claiming "you asked politely, so yeah, ok". wtf. damn bitchy right? i thought words like this only come out from me.

so you might think the bitchy-nest ends there but there was actually more to come. she actually ditched my friend  and kept him waiting like a lil excited boy waiting for mummy to buy him his fav ice cream. turn out, the ice cream was bitter. ish. all crushed and disappointed, the girl offered another date the next day as an apology. and again, the virgin's heart is broken and with no news heard.

being all emo, he decided to send her a msg which has a lil of sarcasm and finally they arranged for the third date.

it all happened like that on the third date. so the msg was sent via facebook. she replied the next day. he saw the notification on the msg icon and was all excited thinking that it was from her. he hesitated to check cause he takut lar. u know, later not from her, he'll be all emo and sad again, virgin heart wert. who can take rejection for three times consecutively. after arguing with him for two hours? he finally checked the msg via his cell. you have no idea how many times he had his phone by the hand, so tempted to check but was so scared. it was damn funny.

and so they were set to meet at destination A. i sent him there. and he was again, so scared to call her to tell her he reach already. i think i wasted 20 minutes in the car to convince him and to lend him the balls he needed to make the phone call. and this is the funniest part of all. haha.

this friend of mine, he's quite dark. so, can u imagine him being all shy and BLUSHING? hahaha. omg! he blushed and was so nervous when talking on the phone with her. you can literally see it in his dark complexion. haha. it was just so hilarious. i tried so hard to control my laughter in the car while he was talking to her and when he hung up, i couldn't help it but burst out laughing hysterically. haha. do you know what he said in the car before calling her?

'eh i look ok a not? do i need to change my clothes?'

'eh, can u walk me in and see if everything's ok'

'eh, can u sit somewhere near to me when i'm having the date with her so that if i behave wrongly you can text me and tell me?'

'eh, lets just go back now lar, screw it. i'm scared'

'eh, cannot lar, i cannot do it'

so many eh's and rubbish and in the end, they went out for the date and it lasted for hours, thanks to me! haha. you owe me one if you ever read this. you know who you are!

p/s: it's not funny actually if you're reading this but for i encounter this myself, i find it so funny that i'll still laugh thinking about it right now.



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Convo convo

the title says it all. today was my convocation day. took a few shots with friends as memories as we don't know when we will meet again.

the years in INTI was great with lots of laughters and tears (i mean it)! thanks to lots of friends that supported each other through out and hope we'll just keep in touch and meet up very soon and often!

special thanks to my mom and my sis that came and supported me as well, being my bag-holder, flower holder and so on.. love you guys lots.

oh yeah, btw, i get FIRST CLASS HONOURS. just for your information. haha =D

the ladies in the house!

flower by mom and friends. love the octopus! <3

you're cuter than that!

First Class graduate with the Chancellor!

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time horizon

i still haven't got the guts to tell everyone what's happening. maybe i'm just afraid that i might not be able to put together myself. so anyway, when it is the right time, i shall tell it to you all ok!

meanwhile, here, i just wanna thank a few people that has supported and still supporting me. thank you for stopping me (though not totally : P) from being so crazy. i might actually lose my mind if it continues.

so i'm gonna give myself till end of this week to see if everything's 'meant to be, supposed to me'-My Happy Ending, Avril Lavigne, 2002. haha. good referencing right? 

its always good to give yourself a time horizon. this is because it helps you to realize it might or is no longer the same and give yourself a break. you deserve it. so mine will be this weekend. then i gotta get serious on decisions made.

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bizarre!

what a bizarre week i had. so many ups and downs. let me break it out. ups? four events in three days time. downs? of the four events, two of each fell on the same day.

deepavali celebration and Addy's party on Friday. deepavali open house was in the noon and party was in the night. so i was able to attend both.

then, on sunday, again, deepavali and Alicia's birthday party. this time, both events fell on the same day and same time. ish. both happened in the night. so i had to choose one and i chose Alicia's because its her big day!

do you  know why i had to make choice? it wasn't suppose to happen that way. its basically because of an asshole that decided to postpone the deepavali celebration to Sunday instead of Saturday because that asshole had got some tickets to some fm's anniversary party or what's not. he claimed that it was r-a-r-e and i-m-p-o-r-t-a-n-t and tickets were hard to get. so, ok lar....... but then, guess what? that idiot didn't go for the party claiming that he had to clean his house. ish! in the end, i had no choice but to miss my sago and curry! ish......!!!

so anyway, that's not just it. there was more to come.

i had diarrhoea.  after attending both parties. i can't believe i'm so 'suey'. it (shall not mention which part) hurts to badly. Addy and Alicia! what's wrong with the food that you both provide?! ish. i shall claim my clinic bill from you! ish ish.

one thing unusual from this diarrhoea is that, i'm still very hungry and constantly craving for food. haha. is that normal? i thought when you have diarrhoea, you're supposed to be half dead, on the bed or toilet all the time? and losing appetite? but in my case, it's totally the opposite! gosh, i'm craving for so much food and most of them will worsen my condition.

and today, it came for the month. each time it comes, i have this unusual mood swing and full with emotions and thoughts. and nothing good come from all this thinking. trust me. i have monitored myself over the past few months. it was never like that. i wonder when i started having this crazy syndrome. and it's bringing me no good at all.

that's pretty much about it. good friends of mine, please pray for my recovery. thank you.
dear God, stop punishing me this way. it hurts.


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broken heart, shattered dream.

it's about a week already, i think. things have been tough but at least i kept it to myself only. because i don't believe in how others can make you feel better. because it usually doesn't work that way.

seeing how things have been going on, made me realise I was quite right. i've been keeping things to myself cause i don't know what to expect next. maybe a change or maybe not.

this has happened countless time but each time things will be mended and everything will seem fine. this round, it seems longer than usual, maybe nothing is suppose to happen. keeping your hopes higher, they will bring you down faster. sigh.

i can't imagine seeing that you are back to the old you so fast. the old you! or maybe i was wrong about you, thinking that you were different each time things happen. but NO! it's all illusion all this while.

oh, i know why things come to this stage. it's KARMA again. i remembered how i treated the old one.

nevertheless, it was a great experience. i always had been serious. different mindset, different goal. you and i.

love and forever, my dear black monster soft toy.


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Happy 21st!

yesterday was addy's 21st. so he invited all of us to a hotel's cafe for a very filling dinner. the environment was good. it was air conditioned, not overly crowded, had waiter/waitresses refilling our drinks all the time and pretty much choice of food for a birthday party.anyhow, it felt like a reunion for me to meet up with others rather than a birthday party. so i pretty much enjoyed it. =)

here are some pictures taken with the birthday boy and some lovely EX-classmates. hehe.

uh? my birthday arr today?

yes its your birthday! Happy 21st!

cinderella and her tikus that need to get home by 12!

miss Joshyn

Sook Mei

Aunty Kat and Celine!

picture with birthday boy

group photo before the day ends!

Hope you enjoyed your day with our presence and presents! 

and there's another one upcoming tomorrow. see you all again!

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Complicated

I'm so scared that the way that I feel
Is written all over my face
When you walk into the room
I want to find a hiding place
We used to laugh, we used to hug
The way that old friends do
But now a smile and a touch 'a your hand
Just makes me come unglued
It's such a contradiction
Do I lie or tell the truth
Is it fact or fiction
Oh, the way I feel for you

It's so complicated

I'm so frustrated

I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away

I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay

Should I say it

Should I tell you how I feel

Oh, I want you to know

But then again I don't

It's so complicated (oh)

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