value of friendship

everyone has friends. you claim that she/he is your bff, your buddy, good friend, close friend, friend and sometimes even to the extend of sister/brother. but is it just because of the spark between both of you at that time where both happen to have the same opinion on something. lets say, for girls. both of you have always hated the bitch in class and happen to know about it and started gossiping about her and it's as though you guys were bff after that. but what happens when one prince charming comes in the way between both. still bff? or do what you can to steal that prince charming away?

it's not like i have any lifetime experience about friends. but it's enough to make me realise the value of friendship. it's almost WORTHLESS. at one point in your life, you can be so close to the person who sits next to you in the class and share almost all secrets in the world including you peeing on your bed when you were 15. but after high school, *phew phew* all disappear as if we were strangers.

friends that you thought will be your bff during high school might turn out to be a bitch that will do anything to stab you till you bleed and die slowly in excruciating pain. what a bitch.

as of now, having left high school for 4-5 years, i started to see who's my friend and who's not. maybe i shall name a few and let that fella feel honoured. *drum rolls* and the person who i treasure the most so far is ANG WEI SZE, yes it's you. don't be a bitch to me. i know you love me. haha. then been catching up with some of my high school friends during the recent badminton session and think that they're actually a really good friend too. that's just in highschool.

when you go to college, it's even more realistic than now. when they need your help, they'll come to you. and vice versa. people that you thought were very close to you may mean nothing to them at all. probably you're just another passer-by in their life. 'eh, who's that person that just pass by? oh, maybe i saw her before in pasar malam.' wtf. life's that realistic. including friendship or any relationship. but at least i think i found some that is worth my time. maybe. yet to evaluate. see if distance would be the stopper for our friendship. *hint hint*

probably relationship is the worse one. how many times have you been in a relationship and abandon your friends because of him. if your friends are fine with it, congratulations! only two possibilities.

(1) it's either they are really your true friends which then i will CONGRATULATE you 

or 

(2) your existence doesn't even bother your friends whether you're dead or alive. congratulations again! you now know the true colours of your friends.

then for all that you have done for your partner, getting him/her to tag along even if it's all girls/boys activities which might cause some to be uncomfortable, ditching your friends for date that have been made one week earlier just because your partner was bored and asked you out for last minute movie to keep him occupied, the worse is probably P.D.A. haha. i think i did that a lot of times. feel a bit shy to cucuk about this shit now. but at least i learnt to care about my friends feelings. 

sigh. anyhow,

life is that sad and full of hypocrite which include me and you. don't deny. anyhow, at this point, i do treasure (too strong word to use.karma might bite that i would have to stab them one day UNWILLINGLY. =)) appreciate some of my friends. please treasure me because if you love me, i'll love you back MORE. haha.

kanak-kanak out there, please don't think the person you are the closest to will be your bff. bull shit. ask him/her in the face. have you ever done anything wrong to me? if he/she says none, i've been a really good friend, END THE FRIENDSHIP IMMEDIATELY! a bit too drama. point the middle finger then. wtf, who hasn't done anything wrong to anyone before.  if he/she admits, maybe then your friend might worth some of your time.

.g.